would you?

if i fell a thousand feet
and bled from my soul,
would you still be there
ready to hold me?
if slowly in my slumber
i died tonight
would you cry tomorrow
at my funeral?
sometimes i doubt that this is real
and think this might just be a dream
and when i wake up, you'll be gone.
i've lost the capacity to believe
i've lost my faith in you.
i've lost myself in the mist and fog
and i don't know what to do.
if i fell a thousand feet
and bled straight from my soul
would you still love me as you do
or would you just shrug and move on?
would you be upset if i died today?
would you care if i didn't?
if i died a thousand times
and still came back to you every time,
would you still be available to be found?